I did a bad thing today. I skipped my broadcasting class. It was just easier not showing up and taking the zero for my daily assignment, than explaining in front of a room full of sorority girls that I couldn't watch the newscast we were assigned to analyze because I don't have a working TV or cable.
It's just so easy to be bitter. It seems like everywhere I turn, I'm reminded that I'm one of the "needy." Some of my friends are even poorer than I am. My heart aches for them...
I can't help but wonder why most of the people at this school have money to throw away on overpriced candy bars and Starbucks drinks, while some friends of mine eat once a day because they can't afford enough food for 3 meals. (Thankfully, I happen to find myself at least two meals on most days.)
Why do some people have designer rainboots, while other people wear dirty clothes because they can't afford laundry? (Or in my case, can't get a ride to DO laundry...)
Why do some people live in flawless rental houses and drive new cars, while others are worried about being homeless?
When "the void" isn't consuming me, this is the other part of my religious struggle.
I realize that some people work hard for what they have...but honestly. In college, it's near impossible to live the "privileged" lifestyle on minimum wage. Most of these people have their parents throwing iPhones and designer purses at them for every holiday...
So does that mean God has decided that they are better people, and in turn, deserving of luxury, or even comfort, while other people are not? Are there only a select few that are worthless enough to be forced to live in hunger, need, and desperation?
The broke and supposedly "hopeless" aren't there because they choose to be. It's all chalked up to bad luck.
Some have fallen into bad habits, but I don't entirely blame them. Some kind of loss or tragedy has created a hole in them that is big enough that they don't know any other ways to fill it up...
I wish I could help them, but I can't, because I am one of them.
I have it better than a select few, because I do eat every day, and I'm not homeless...but every time I walk across campus and see all the smartphones, Coach accessories, and professionally-done hairstyles, I can't help but wonder why?
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Hi Anna,
ReplyDeleteThat IS a tough one. You know, God doesn't pick and choose who is poor--in fact, when God created this planet that concept didn't even exist! People try to blame God for so many things as there excuse for keeping Him out of their lives--sickness, poverty, war...."Why does God let bad things happen to good people?" The blame for all of the bad in the world falls on SIN. When Eve first sinned with Adam by eating that forbidden fruit, sin was let into what was once a perfect world, and now things like illness and poverty exist, but then you may ask, "Well, He's an all powerful God, right? Why can't He just make it all better?" That would be because He gave us free will to make our own decisions. PEOPLE are responsible for the poorness of other PEOPLE. Let us not forget that the devil himself still roams the earth causing these problems as well. God isn't a genie, and He's not just going to fix everything when someone accepts Him, but He does make the trials a whole lot better. When I was a kid, I lived in poverty myself. My mom didn't have a job and my dad wasn't good with money--my mom had to file for divorce under 'indigent' status', but we were brought out of that and praise God we are much better off financially, we are truly blessed. I do hope you'll give God a chance to rock your world. I just know, God's heart breaks for you. For everyone who suffers, and a time WILL come when He will correct all wrongs and cast sin out of this world, that time is just not now.
Love,
"A"